Day 11 of My Detox

So, here I am on day 11 of my December detox and boy this is rocking now! All week I have had it easy, thinking this is great (it was) hardly any major symptoms and just rolling along....well now, it's finally moving.

Kids are down with coughs and colds, no one is getting any sleep, plus it's the week before Solstice and I am up to my ears (self imposed) with cooking, cleaning and organizing. Just because I really wanted to do one main thing this time around....

I want these few days to arrive and for me to not spend each and every day standing in the kitchen baking, cooking, planning, organizing and wondering about the meals, treats, desserts and goodies we are going to enjoy.

Part of this is because I love doing all of these things so much - and I want everything to taste divine...

What I would like to happen is to have most of that wonderful food already sorted, cooked, baked, planned and ready for us - so that I can just focus on the main meals but have some idea of each day and what we can eat. These meals are such a big deal - this is our big celebration for the year and of course we are all together for the week.

I don't know about you, but I have days where I spend all my time preparing the food, organizing children, cleaning, getting everyone sorted and by the time I sit down to eat my dinner I am too tired to enjoy it. This is mostly because I am 'catering' to everyone during our feast times and want to make the meals very special.

This year I have thought about it and decided some of our food can be wonderful and prepared ahead of time. This would give me far more time to eat (can't wait!), cook a little, enjoy my free time and perhaps get to read a book, watch a dvd or go for walks in the sunshine (fingers crossed).

To this end, I have been keeping myself busy during my detox - making everything I can think of that we might need, want, desire or dream of during our Solstice feast. I've never been so organized in my life! LOL

April  

Baby pine trees in pots

Finding Peace this Season

Today is day 10 of my detox and I am doing well. Yesterday turned out to be quite an interesting day after all, however, it started out with the energy of something I couldn't quite put my finger on. It took me nearly all day, but I finally could name what it was.

It was wickedness. I even had to look it up to get an accurate definition just to see what I was experiencing. It's as if I had found a thread and now I had the work of unraveling to do to get to the bottom of this ill will.

My day was not altogether unpleasant, I was just subjected to someone's malicious intent, when I wouldn't do what they wanted me to do. Of course, if you know anything about me by now, I have a mind and a will of my own (multiply that by a few in our house!) and I do as I see fit.

That being said, doesn't mean I don't do things for others - I just will not do something that will compromise, damage or otherwise short change myself or my family. At one time - I did, as a matter of course, it seemed to have been built into me in some way...

I always ended up with the short end of the stick and so did my family because I could not say no even when it was to something that could potentially drain me. Well, this week I said no - and boy was there a backlash.

The amount of darkness and evil intent that has surfaced has been profound. Even though this is a difficult part of the path to walk through I am glad it is coming up to the surface (this detox is working!). At least now it will finally clear - hopefully once and for all.

Obviously this has been a very big pattern in my life and I see it in so many others lives especially this time of the year - see if this fits you: 

Receive an invitation to someone's house or to be expected to go out for a social function, grumble and complain about them, not wanting to go. End up going because you feel you have to and then complaining some more about the people, what was said, done or wasn't said.

Does any of this sound familiar? Well, for me it meant tying up precious energy but far more then that, not living in integrity. Who was I really kidding by spending time around people I had no connection with and at the end of it all, I didn't even like. They didn't like me either, it was 'social' thing....and the biggest energy drain in our lives because we are participating in a false relationship.

Perhaps this year be on the lookout for drama, energy sapping social engagements and do something else instead - you might just find a little more peace in your life in it's place....

April

Cloved Oranges I am working on with the children...

Fallen Angels, Energy Entities & Attachments

Now on day 9 of my detox and feeling tired but very good with more detox symptoms and lots of dreams. And I woke up this morning sensing that something has changed and I finally knew what it was...

It's all about Angels - especially the Fallen Angels who as many of you already know, are running rampart on the earth and have nearly everyone fooled and in their grasp. The main problem is they have set themselves up as the 'good guys' ...

So we have people calling on them, channelling and inviting them into their lives and bodies. Actually there are people calling in anything and everything - entities, ghosts, orbs, spirits, Angels -- without giving any thought to what might show up.

I remember back in the 90's mentioning this in a class I was attending and being resoundingly told that 'it was ok' - only to see those same people make themselves sick (and worse) because of all the energy attachments they had gathered. 

Right now the earth is over capacity with these energy leaches, something is going to give - perhaps this is the 12/12/12 energy shift because of one main event that must now take place; These energy entities are all low vibration attachments. They need human energy to live, function and feed off of....(I know heavy duty stuff this early in the day!)

Once human consciousness begins it's upward climb into loftier realms, if your body is healthy, clear and clean - these attachments will fall away. They cannot go higher, they can only exist on the lower levels of dimensional awareness.

No wonder we have so many frightened greedy people in the world - their food source is drying up.

April

Knowing how to protect my Energy field saved, changed and is healing my life...

Rising Consciousness - 12/12/12

Today is day 8 of my December detox and to be absolutely honest - other than the fact that I am cooking, baking and not eating the food I prepare - I haven't really noticed anything about this detox. Maybe it has to do with the time of the year and being so busy with everything else...

But time is flying by here and it seems like nothing. Yet, underneath the surface, I know things are bubbling away and this might prove to be the deepest, biggest and most life changing cleanse yet. But, then, I say that every time don't I?

Or, might it be that when I do these cleanses each time I strip off another layer, go a bit more deeply into issues, energy and patterns - that it's enough to significantly change/alter my outlook, existence, physical reality and frame of mind each time. 

Today I am feeling pretty good. I didn't sleep much last night, but it had nothing to do with the detox, and everything to do with my latest holiday pudding concoction (Sticky Date & Fig). It took far longer to steam then I figured it would however, by the way it smelled and looked, it might be my best one yet! 

So, I am still busy preparing for my favourite time of the year....but also giving some thought to these dates which are fast approaching. Tomorrow is 12.12.12 - very powerful numbers and I have always paid attention to them.

I remember the days of having a digital clock in my room - and being woken at various times consistently. 3:33 was the main one along with 5:55... I got used to the trigger points numbers bring up for us and have always kept an awareness around them.

I feel tomorrow will bring in some new energy - I have always felt that it has to do with higher consciousness. Each of these changes taking place on the planet from the wars, unrest, recession, banks stealing everything... all geared to keep consciousness (cellular vibration) at a low level, have failed. 

Consciousness is rising - those who are resistant to that have already lost their battle. You can't keep us down - the earth will find a way to lift us up.

April

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Going Off Grid - Energy Shift

Today I woke up and felt the need to challenge myself a little bit more than I do already, mostly because I love a challenge but it also wakes up some more brain cells. Perhaps what started this off was yesterday - we went off the power grid for a few hours....

We have a generator and wanted to test it out. It's always a good idea to know that these things will work when or if you need them. But more then that, it has long been a goal of mine to get off of the power grid and generate our own electricity.

So, with this in mind we shut off the power and went completely on our own steam for the day. Which meant I had to be careful and knowledgeable about our power needs and usage. It's quite a learning curve and was the topic of discussion for the day.

For me, it was an even bigger task, because I was determined to carry on with some holiday baking without an oven. I ended up doing lots of research and reaching deep back into my own past (summers spent camping and living on food we caught or hunted) and made some wood stove scones.

It was great fun - and we plan on doing it again soon, just because the energy of the house was so nice, for the entire time we were off the grid. Now, it might have been that we were a little excited about doing something different or it could be that being connected to anything outside of ourselves always brings in outside energy (and this being 'foreign' to our own, never quite feels right).

Energy flows two ways - it is always like this, if something is coming in (taking something on board), then something is equally moving out (losing or giving something away). This is the basis of all Energy Medicine and something I have studied, worked with and written about in depth for the last 25 years or so.

Right now I am still processing all that I did and didn't experience yesterday and will write about it as the days unfold. From where I am standing right now - yesterday was one of the biggest eye openers I have ever had.

And I have had one hell of a life up to now....

April

Summer Roses....

Dealing with Resistance - Purpose of Fasting...

Today has been a busy one so far, Sunday usually is around here. After we took the goat's for a walk, things settled down enough for me to get some baking done.... Yes, the goat's love to go for a walk, on a leash and have a chance to sample some of the brambles growing by the stream...

So, I have been baking up a storm (as per usual during a cleanse) but this time I am pushing myself to make things I wouldn't ordinarily eat. Such as mincemeat pies, Christmas Puddings (or any puddings) hoping to either extend our tastes or at least keep my baking new and exciting.

And as always I am feeling so much resistance to trying out these new recipes, ideas and skills involved in cooking new dishes. Of course, this being a detox, I have nothing else to 'digest' other then these issues, thoughts and emotions that are coming up to the surface.

That is indeed the entire function of not having food in the digestive tract for a few days - all the deeply held and long buried 'stuff' can rise up and be dealt with. Today is day 6 of this detox and other than experiencing so much resistance, I am feeling great.

I have some of the usual detox symptoms, my legs are heavy, my tongue is a little coated, my skin has been bumpy and my hair is dull (to me anyway). Yet, yesterday I was told how well I looked and asked what my secret was....

Errr....10 days fasting each month? Or all the organic food? Or the clean water... personally, I think it is  tipped in favour of the water, as I have only drank unprocessed well water for many years. Immediately after I changed my diet and started only drinking this kind of water, my skin started to glow (this after years of agonizing over spots and bumps, to find out it's the water!).

And my dreams right now - this bears mention because they are wild. Last night I had everything from a man with zebra skin with an animal growing out of his shoulder, to another person with a being protruding from their stomach and someone working on an electrical system. 

In one of my dreams I was angry with someone whom I had to constantly clean up after (memories from my childhood) and was doing quite a bit of yelling at her to pick up her mess. And what a mess it was! I woke up wondering if I have still to detox all of that out....LOL

Onwards and upwards

April

Glandore Sailing Club - in the summer 

Energetic Alignment & Integration

It's only early in the morning right now - day 5 of my December detox and things are going as they should be. I am muddling through all of these feelings, thoughts and memories of times past - but more importantly I am dreaming of what is to come.

Last night I had dreams all night about food, but not just any food, more specifically, the types of foods we would only eat at Solstice, Yule and Christmas time. I dreamt of cooking turkey, wild game and fish in fancy dishes and then serving them up...

What was interesting was there was a person in my dreams who I would never have thought of as negative - until this moment. I have only now realized how dark and heavy his energy was in my life and how he was such a fearful presence.

I thought this was an interesting twist on things, because he ended up staying behind - fearful of moving on with his life. Perhaps he is still there...

Right now I am working on understanding the symbolism of all this and each person or what it is showing me about myself. What part of me is fearful of moving forward, what part of me has stayed behind by choice or any other means?

Now my task would be to bring all of my-being into this present moment - moving into the NOW is the process of integration, which is an energetic alignment. There is a lot of talk about it, even therapies devoted to it, however, I would not let anyone interfere with my cellular integration.

Our bodies know exactly how to do this, what is needed to be achieved and it takes place if and when the space opens up. An energy field has a simple function - all that is required of us is to feed our bodies properly, exercise and believe that we are more then capable of this work.

April

Schull, West Cork