Seasonal Energy Shift.....

What an interesting week we have had after the new moon….this time of year we are in the middle of great seasonal changes. But, perhaps at this time in the history of the world we are also in the middle of great revelations – about ourselves and how the world has been run for us, certainly not by us.

I have noticed how jaded we are, cynical and more then a little unfocused with all that is taking place around us. But, as many of these things rise up to the surface to be revealed I have also noticed another great anomaly of this current age….

There is so much we just don’t want to know (indifference?) or at least I tend to meet someone every now and then who feels this way about themselves and the world around them. It’s such a sad state to be in!

I know I certainly don’t feel that way….I want to know everything about everything and how it all works and then some. LOL. This Universe we call home is filled with wonderful things just waiting for us to discover, re-claim and re-cover –never a dull moment around here…...

Over the years my body has taken me on this incredible journey (and continues to do so) which only gets deeper, more focused and rewarding with each step of this age old path….however, along the way the single most thing that must be pulled out from these spaces is fear.

Fear, there’s that terrible word again, it has taken root and grown so deeply into the light places of our bodies and minds, that in some instances,  we are completely paralyzed (energy block) because of it.

Perhaps the best way to overcome some of this fear is to take one thing that you are afraid of and talk about it, write about it, pursue it and otherwise explore what it means to you and your life here this time around.

Then, once you have gained some new perspective on it, jump in the deep end of it and see what happens…perhaps it’s time to see where you are at on your journey within and certainly to find out if the hope, faith and love you find inside will ‘float’ you onwards towards your goals.

April

Rebel Duck......

Is Worry Strangling Our Creative Force?

I have been having conversations with people and doing some thinking about the concept of worry. It is a strange one….how did all of this worry come about and why do we do it? When did we start (the human race) worrying about our lives?

Has it always been like this?

There are a few ways to look at this habit in fact…one is that it’s only a mind thing. I mean, can you imagine your body being worried about something? Or for that matter, what about an animal spending time fretting….

From what I can see and understand, most other living beings just get on with asking, planning, creating or finding ways and means to get their needs met. In other words, they stay active and persistent (anyone have a puppy? LOL).

But, then there’s us…the top of the food chain and what do we spend most of our time worried about? Perhaps for a good many people it’s about food – what will we eat, how will we afford to buy our food and then the ultimate – how will that food affect us (weight gain, health, energy etc.).

It’s quite a cycle we have set up here! Worry until we have the food or the means to acquire it, then, worry about eating it, cooking it, preparing it, serving it, sharing it, wearing it – and how to get more of it.

And then lets look at this word – what does worry actually mean and where does this word come from? According to Websters', worry means to torment oneself and to suffer from disturbing thoughts….it’s original meaning was 'to strangle'.

Hmmm…look at these descriptive words – we torment and cause suffering to ourselves when we worry. Not only that, we are strangling our creative force when we spend our energy (resources) worrying.

The big question here is how to stop? And of course, what to do about these things that are sitting on our minds…perhaps the first step is to recognize why, when and how we worry.

Then, to begin the process of breaking this pattern….take action. Each time we find ourselves fretting over something, do anything constructive (exercise, laugh, write, sip water, go outside, talk to someone) that lifts us up and out of this debilitating habit.

April

It's Time to Change Our Minds....Dealing with Fear

These days my mind is focused on change….and what usually comes along with those thoughts is the deep rooted patterns of fear…we see it everywhere. Some of it we even recognize, however – there is far more that is cleverly disguised as something else altogether.

Recently I have heard it mentioned how brave someone is (ie no fear) when they have done something clearly and plainly 'out of fear'. Such as, have a drastic medical procedure….instead of taking exquisite care of their bodies, getting to know themselves better and maybe believing in their own commitment to health.

Of course there is a lot more to that as well…just ask me, I’ve been there. A few times.

I’ve faced serious illnesses and dealt with it through fear, which didn’t work and then through trust and faith in my body, mind and soul. The proof that this gentle, natural, holistic approach works, is that I’m still here! LOL

So…back to fear. Just what is this emotion we talk so much about, yet seem to find ourselves dancing around…not really ever getting to the bottom of? I think it is based on a healthy instinct (such as the fight or flight mechanism) that has gone out of control….

Or, has this innate, inborn response been hijacked by something (a virus, toxins, caffeine??) where our normal functions are overridden and blown out of proportion. When we are not in control a struggle ensues and there we have it….

More fear is generated because we are struggling with normal body processes which interfere with our mind/thinking/thoughts – and we all know how the overmind can then step in and inflate the least little thing.

It’s as if a tiny ‘normal’ fear/concern/wondering becomes blown out of context into something it clearly is not. Our systems are certainly out of whack and our minds are generating fear when they don’t need to.

So what to do about all of this? Well that’s simple!! It’s time to 'change' our mind LOL…..

You know what I will say to that…change your diet, change your gut, change your body and you change your mind. This takes dedication, time, energy and effort – but to make one significant impact on your life right now, make every effort to clean out your gut.

Get your mind back on track…

April

Overcoming Energetic Patterns of Fear

Today has been a strange energy day – yet another one this week. Perhaps it’s the sunshine – light tends to highlight the dust and cracks in things. Or maybe it is something else entirely.

It feels as if something is changing…I know that I certainly am. My body has been telling me that my life is coming back on the inside of my gut – in the spaces and places it has been depleted for so long.

I am not always certain that I am feeling or sensing these differences….but I do know that my body feels and seems to be a bit different since I came off the 30 day cleanse. There are more subtle changes – perhaps that’s the right word for it.

One thing that has been on my mind a lot is how my approach to food, living and just being here has evolved over the past couple of years in particular. When I look back at that time frame I can see a lot of change in myself and my family.

It’s this day to day living that gets difficult at times for those of us walking the spiritual path – one word that has meant a lot to me over the years is ‘overcome’. Today I was pondering this word once again, as I mulled over another energetic pattern I wanted to be done with.

That pattern is one of fear.

We are all still tackling fear in our lives on so many levels – it feels as if it is coming at us from so many angles that it’s hard to keep them all out. But, it is worthwhile work to do – removing and breaking free of the pattern of fear. Where there is fear, there isn’t love – there actually isn’t much of anything – just a hole.

Another thing I have noticed lately is how I have been picking up fear from others. And this is yet another pattern I want to break free from. I can remember being like this all of my life and would cringe at the thought of being around people I knew to be fearful.

Right now I am trying to think of some words to describe how it feels to me…if I were to start with my stomach it’s as if there is an emptiness inside. Then my mind loses all focus on reality or the present moment and spiritually I tend to sense that I am depleted.

Like a dead or dying horse. Yet, I know this is not mine – this is how someone else’s fear (I have picked up) feels around me. My own fear – is totally different, that would be more of a reaction – it propels me into action.

Lots to think about here while I work through each of these important issues…I have fasted for the past couple of days and will do so again next week. It always gets things moving!

April

Rooting Out Negative Energy

I feel as if I am on the other side of something huge – a part of my attention and focus was being pulled in an unhelpful direction. Over the last few hours I was able to root out the negative energy and now feel back to myself in every way.

It’s funny you know – how easily something can get in (or perhaps it was there all along and it came up to the surface to be released). Even when we feel we are well defended, perhaps we are not.

Whenever there is an open door, unwanted entities can walk straight in. Whenever there is an energy leak or a hole of some kind – we can draw towards us energies or anything else that doesn’t belong.

And what is even more interesting is how – an energy might belong somewhere else and decide to move into a space or place it should not be in. Any open area, vacant lot or emptiness can and will be filled – by something.

If a vacuum is created in some way inside of your body – the natural inclination of the Universe is to fill it. However, the earth is teaming right now with so much and so many (too many open doors) your own body hardly gets a chance to heal naturally or fill in the energy with it’s own self.

So, how did we get so open? For the most part this is very simple – any situation that creates fear (poor diet, medication, antibiotics, poison water, lack of exercise, broken spirit) will cause our energy fields to leak energy.

Any form of toxin (even toxic emotions) can gain a foothold in our bodies, if that doesn’t belong to us, or should not be there, it will cause a slow down in the energy field (an energy block) It also invites other toxins to join it and these toxins gather together to create an acidic environment.

This might then lead to various types of disease states or dysfunction. So why is all of this taking place?

Our bodies are not healing as long as we expect medication to do the work for us. All medication will do is push down the symptoms of a larger problem, which will then re-surface as something else, somewhere else. Unless you start at the beginning, heal your gut (naturally) re-build your immune system and then allow food, clean water and exercise to be your medicine….

Well, the cycle just keeps on going.

April

Energetic Alignment & Integration

It's only early in the morning right now - day 5 of my December detox and things are going as they should be. I am muddling through all of these feelings, thoughts and memories of times past - but more importantly I am dreaming of what is to come.

Last night I had dreams all night about food, but not just any food, more specifically, the types of foods we would only eat at Solstice, Yule and Christmas time. I dreamt of cooking turkey, wild game and fish in fancy dishes and then serving them up...

What was interesting was there was a person in my dreams who I would never have thought of as negative - until this moment. I have only now realized how dark and heavy his energy was in my life and how he was such a fearful presence.

I thought this was an interesting twist on things, because he ended up staying behind - fearful of moving on with his life. Perhaps he is still there...

Right now I am working on understanding the symbolism of all this and each person or what it is showing me about myself. What part of me is fearful of moving forward, what part of me has stayed behind by choice or any other means?

Now my task would be to bring all of my-being into this present moment - moving into the NOW is the process of integration, which is an energetic alignment. There is a lot of talk about it, even therapies devoted to it, however, I would not let anyone interfere with my cellular integration.

Our bodies know exactly how to do this, what is needed to be achieved and it takes place if and when the space opens up. An energy field has a simple function - all that is required of us is to feed our bodies properly, exercise and believe that we are more then capable of this work.

April

Schull, West Cork 

Old Energy Patterns Being Dismantled

Finally - I was thinking late last night before I went to sleep how I was getting the sense of a little break though with this cleanse...it was as if things were starting to make sense or that the goal I started out with was now coming into focus. 

Yesterday I had good levels of energy as well as got some exercise in as well as all the other things I do in a day - I spent some time down in the barn with the goats (because they were in for the day on account of the rain) and that left me feeling peaceful.

I had very telling dreams again last night - dreams all night long of the same things, people and places as well as the energy that was coming in from each of the interactions. In one dream a person who I know to be very angry had shown up at our house and was leaving great piles of old stuff (broken furniture, old clothes, old toys etc.) things I did not not want or need.

I just stood there asking why I had to take this on in my house when I clearly did not want it. Then she was leaving to go get more. In the dream she completely ignored me as if I wasn't even there and my protests fell on deaf ears.

So, that told me a lot. This wasn't anything new of course, an old pattern from family members - being dumped on with things that do not belong and I didn't want. Then feeling powerless to do much about it because my voice was not heard or paid attention to.

I have been wondering when this one would surface - it shows me how deep this cleanse is going but also what I am tackling right now as well. Many of us drawn to these healing professions have these energetic patterns - very unhealthy and dispiriting at the same time.

There is nothing like a deep cleanse to get this moving and hopefully keep it moving out...

April

Sunrise this morning in Leap, West Cork

The Dreams We Have As Children....

I am now on day 6 of my Master Cleanse and things are really settling into full swing. I have been dreaming all night long - it seems as if I only have to close my eyes and I slip into some other world where work is being done.

Last night I dreamt of everything from cooked turkey to trying on dresses - it was quite a busy night. I am sleeping though in the middle of it all, so at least there is that. 

Today I have been feeling pretty good - as usual the best part of cleansing is the energy levels are always great. I have not stopped today and for some reason am having a hard time getting myself to sit. I just want to stand, walk and move around.

One new thing in our house today is that the canary laid a little tiny blue egg. I think her mate is too young so it won't be a fertile egg - the kids are already calling it a mini-omlette. Such farm hands they are! So, I will keep you posted on the baby canary front.

Other than that, the lads are joining me tomorrow to start their cleanse and my week to myself will be coming to a close. It has been a great learning curve for me not only with going it alone but also proving to myself that I can focus on anything I put my mind to, even while cooking for the rest of the house and watching them eat.

The rest of my detox symptoms are pretty tame on the physical front - this one is all emotional, mental and spiritual. I am doing a lot of work with my inner child at this point and have memories coming to the surface from early childhood.

I am also making lots of connections to things that are from these negative patterns of fear set down when I was young. Fear seems to be a huge factor - for the life of me I had not realized how fearful childhood must be.

Or perhaps it was just my childhood? I certainly hope that my own children don't feel as fearful as this...it has got me thinking about things, that is for certain. I am sure there will be more to come in the next few days.

April

Stewed apples & cinnamon - comfort food!

Mind Worms and Spirit

Yesterday felt to be such a normal day for me, yet by the time I went to bed last night it was as if something very significant had happened. I felt as if I had broken through yet another layer of resistance and energy blocks. 

For nearly all of my life I have believed I am an 'all or nothing' kind of person and have often said those words or had them said to me. But, what went along with that was another underlying belief that I needed things to be a little difficult.

I am not sure where those beliefs came in from, I would tell people the opposite - yet they have persisted in my life. Actually these past few months I have been throwing out a few limiting mind worms that have seemingly moved in and taken over. 

Each of these appear to be about 'the Universe' - as if this was some other worldly entity I have no contact with and no say whatsoever in. It's funny how we get this into our heads that if the Universe wants this or that - then that is how it will be.

Such an unhealthy, passive and nonspiritual way to live! And so many of us have bought into it. Well not anymore and not for sometime on my end. I don't like to feel limited by this thought - that someone or something else other then me has any influence or control over what I am doing next.

This doesn't even sound right. When we think about it more deeply, we can clearly see how the Universe must be some part of us - then if this is the case, how can it be working against us or not bringing us our hearts wishes and desires?

Unless, someone else (or something else) has set themselves up as the Divine Universe and are operating from a  parallel world? Possible? Of course. Another scenario might be how our internal communication and ability to create (energy potential) have been harnessed by other energies such as nasty bacteria or toxins from yeast for example. 

Then, with something else firmly in the command centre, we are heavily influenced by whatever they need us to think, believe, fear or worry about. Usually these are any spiritually limiting thoughts such as - when the Universe wants it, walking the path is supposed to be difficult (all the time), not knowing if something is right or wrong...and any other confusion along the way.

In my experience so far, as long as I am eating non toxic foods (remove any drug such as caffeine, alcohol, sugar, Night Shades, chemicals etc.) drinking clean water, exercising and generally listening to my body - the things I want are what my spirit also wants. 

Such as to follow my dreams, make them happen and allow my life to play out as I see it. Not through the eyes of anyone else.

Well that's me, off and running! 

April

Thyme drying in the kitchen

Fear Dominates Life - When You Ingest Toxins

Having touched on this topic a few times here, it is amazing how I keep coming back around to it. Fear has been so deeply embedded into the DNA of our species, mostly through the food and water that we are taking in. Today I wanted to share with you a bit more about the changes that I have made and continue to make to remove this negativity. 

I remember when I used to eat a 'typical' diet and live a 'normal' life - layers of toxins and negativity dissolving anything good. For those who still listen to the news and steep themselves in negative information that comes in from official sources, a little more poison in the food probably isn't that noticeable.

It is not until you begin the process of removing some of these nasty toxins from your mind, body and soul (because you want to lose weight, heal, move forward spiritually etc.) that you realize the toll they have all taken on you. However,  you can also see how each one of these contaminates added and intermixed with the others creating a brew of something horrible.

Years ago I started out slowly eliminating many unnecessary 'foods' from my life including all the usual ones like sugar, dairy, wheat, alcohol, caffeine. With each layer taken away my thinking got clearer, my intuitive abilities stronger and exact, of course I also felt far better and my body healed.

Even with these anti-nutrients taken out of my diet, I still could sense a certain level of toxins coming in, being an intuitive and a health investigator by trade, I stopped at nothing until I discovered what this was. It turned out to be a group of fruits that I have since come to know as the most anti-spiritual things on the planet and indeed the Night Shades (potato, tomato, aubergine, chillies, peppers and gogi berries), had a hold on my spirit which was causing concern, because I was dying a spiritual death inside. 

If I were to back up a bit here, many years before this time, when I had made a few select changes to my diet and lifestyle, I found myself in Findhorn, a spiritual centre in northern Scotland for a conference. As often happens in places such as this, a complete stranger who turned out to be a Naturopathic doctor from North America approached me with a message from spirit.

Back in 1997, she informed me that I was to stay away from all Night Shades and only then would things become clear for me (my destiny, purpose, mission). At the time I was mystified, these were just vegetables/fruits, how could they possibly interfere with my spiritual life and the work I am doing?

However, her words stayed with me even though it was a few years later before I finally relented and stopped including them altogether in our diets at home. I had come to my own conclusions by that time, but it was quite clear, the Night Shades and their toxins were to be added to the list of poisonous foods. 

It was only then that my life changed completely, entirely and utterly - moving onwards at incredible speed into new areas. The first thing I remember changing for me was the fog lifting, within 72 hours of clearing the house of these foods, even the energy of the place had lifted.

Since that time I have learned, understood and detoxed these noxious fruits out of my system and never looked back. When it comes to spirituality, if something is toxic or poisonous to the body, there is no difference for the rest of our being. Harming the body is the same as hurting mind and spirit.

Whenever there is poison present in your body several things occur;

• fear dominates the mind
• harm is being done to the body
• an energy block forms in the field
• patterns of negativity and anger control everything 
• feelings of confusion 

However, once these toxins begin to be eliminated from our bodies, and detoxed out of the delicate systems (through Master Cleanses etc.), the body heals and all can be restored. Of course, this takes time, commitment and dedication to fully walking the spiritual path. 

Perhaps it is time to take a step forward into the light

April

Barley Cove Beach, West Cork