Parasite Cleanse - Die Off

Today I am carrying on with my parasite cleanse and am feeling even better then yesterday. Perhaps I am on the upswing from a deep detox cycle – one thing that I am certain of though, is that this is working.

I am actually aware of parasites dying inside my gut – it’s a weird sense of letting go that I know is not mine. But I also have a bloated tummy (on a fast, this is unusual!) so I know their they are on their last legs.

The thing about parasites however, is that there is always more of them. So, you cannot stop once there is a die off. Because they have several phases or life cycles, the only way to deal with them is to keep going.

And that is where mental, physical, energetic and spiritual stamina comes into play. Any of this work (or work that is worth doing) requires of us a full measure of commitment.

Of course once a person is on board and on track to doing something they are convinced is the right thing – then there should be no stopping them. At least this is correct in theory, and what I am telling myself (fake it until you make it!).

In actual fact, the further along this road we go, the greater the resistance we will encounter. But, that is not to say this resistance wasn’t there all along. For indeed it was, it is and it has exerted it’s unholy force on us all along.

Our job is to recognize it for what it is – deal with it and move through it. And this is the sticking point for so many people. They encounter resistance and because it is so very familiar to them – allow themselves to be convinced it is theirs and stop short of their goals.

So beware – see your plans through to the end – and you will be rewarded with a clean tummy, renewed health and your energy back. What a fantastic goal! 

April

Max and Dara at the market on Saturday

Day 13 - On the Juice!

That's another cleanse done - today it's our juice day and we are all feeling great. And I am happy to have accomplished another leg of this journey with our fasting. Each one is unique, each one takes us more deeply into our bodies and every time we are closer to our final goals.

Right now I have a sore throat and the cold my kids had a couple weeks ago -- LOL. So, I am not feeling overly terrible, just stuffed up, achey and perhaps worse than any of the days spent detoxing. Such is life, now it's my turn to have a cold and get more energy moving.

So far today I am drinking only juices and water, but later on in the evening I will have a lovely bowl of stewed veggies or some soup. I can't wait - it is a blustery cool day and the exact weather for some nourishing food.

As I went to sleep last night I could feel something very dark around me - almost as if this was the final push from my body to get another layer of toxins out - all I kept seeing were strange mythical creatures with a magical energy about them. 

Perhaps this was the evidence I had been waiting for of the dark arts moving out, a pattern breaking apart and the final removal of some horrible spell. It's funny, I liken my 40 days detox to breaking free of a curse. It was that powerful -- and these past 12 days were no less so. Just not as intense.

Where does it all come from? Well one area is any place evil intentions, ill will and hate reside. There are unfortunately far too many people in this world who spread that stuff around like a virus. What this does to us is something like cause a fault in the programming, affecting our thoughts and therefore our actions.

Being around people who spread dark energy and pull you down, along with a poor diet of sugar, caffeine and other drugs will cause us to soak up this energy like a sponge. Once this energy gets taken on board, it will fester and create energy blocks.

One of the things I like about fasting, cleansing and detoxing using water and herbs, is the manner in which these energy blocks are tackled and broken down one piece at a time. Now, let's see what this next few days bring as there is always an adjustment period post cleanse. 

April

Sun in the trees

Taking Action is Easier Then Standing Still

Today is another food day, with the countdown now on for our next 10 day Master Cleanse - this August cleanse will be the fourth one in 4 months and once again not much has stayed the same. Of course, these changes are little, smaller steps along the way, adding up over time.

Looking back right now to the last 3 months, I am not in the same place that I was in - at all, and definitely not thinking along the same lines. My entire life has changed again -- however it is mostly centered around my mind and the things I believe about myself.

And for the first time in my life I can honestly say that I am fully following my dreams, pursuing my own personal goals and by doing so, my children have their mom back. I am happier, more centered and grounded, my mind is clearer and my energy is back (for the most part).

By choosing to focus entirely on the things that I want for myself and my family, I am taking leaps, jumps and steps in faith and trust every single day, what I could not have predicted was that my stress levels would be so much reduced.

All of this is a result of me (finally) waking up on more levels and realizing that dreams were not going to come true by themselves, not without me taking these final steps towards making them happen. Setting a goal is one thing, making it reality requires action and a whole lot of guts.

An entire mountain of negativity has been moved out of my way as well during these last few months and I put this down to fasting, cleansing and detoxing repeatedly during this past year and refusing to let go of this belief that all things will be better, just keep going.

My entire life is not yet to where I want it to be, but the foundations are in place and I continue to push forward with the assurance that it will be. Believing is seeing! 

Enjoy your day,

April

Butterfly on the garden sage 

Frustration on The Spiritual Path...Living A Lie

Being frustrated, tired, fearful and feeling held back, tired and fearful (smile!) are some common emotions and experiences on this path. I meet and talk to people all the time who express the very same sentiment about their own attempts to create a better life for themselves or to get something moving forward - to no avail.

From my own observations, it seems that we continue to immerse ourselves in this level of frustration as long as we remain unaware of our true passions, dreams and are not fully aligned with them. One thing that I have noticed as well is there are times when we know full well our ultimate goals, however we are not yet in the space for these to happen.

Therefore, space (moving into the right energy for creation to take place) and place (living, walking and talking from the best position for forward momentum) are both key aspects to be considered here in our efforts to reduce frustration and allow spirit to move us forward.

I say it often in my blogs and to people that I talk with - once you become aware of a better way or the truth, you must start taking steps to act on this enlightenment. This does not mean that everything will change overnight (in some cases that may occur) but it does mean that you allow this knowledge to guide your next actions. 

This is what I refer to as living with the 'lights on' in full recognition of truth. There are so many things that take place around each of us daily, that are part of such a huge untruth or lie - this simply requires some time to untangle. 

Notice here that I did not say 'a truth', I used the words 'the truth'. There is only one truth and therefore there is only one way forward and that is through the body, mind and soul. You cannot become a fully conscious being without bringing all of you along for this experience.

Food for thought,

April

This past few days I came across an expression -- "it you are earning a paycheck, you are following someone else's dream, if you no longer count your pay, you are following your own dreams". Brilliant!

Imagination

These past few days have been bringing up some very interesting dreams - as there appears to be a bit of a clearing house taking place. I mentioned this phase of Food, Fast & Feast a few days ago, post Master Cleanse a lot takes place, in many ways far more then during the cleanse itself.

This time around has been very significant for me, as obstacles, blocks, stuckness and all these other feelings of being held back in life are being tackled one at a time and then removed from my way. Of course this involves participation on my part as well as the recognition of exactly what is taking place.

One thing that I have been realizing is that I have been carrying dreams around that are not mine, just the same as any other energy imprint, taking on someone else's energy will not only slow you down it will fester and create a block in your energy field. 

How many dreams do we carry that are not entirely our own, perhaps bits and pieces of hopes and desires that have become interwoven with our own from someone else's life. It is important to take some time after a cleanse and sort out exactly what is yours and what can be returned to sender.

This is an important weeding out process and should be taking place (often!) in all areas of our lives and bodies. In the same way that a detox cleans out old debris and toxins from the tissues, on an energetic level, it should also affect and begin to clean out all other aspects of our beings.

One other point that I wanted to make here as well - is do not compromise on your goals, dreams, hopes or desires. During this weeding out, make certain that you hold onto what is yours. There is always a way forward, you can and will have exactly what you want in life-  you have to keep moving and working steadily towards this end.

Some years ago, a well meaning friend sat me down and told me to narrow my focus, whittle down my larger then life dreams into one or at the most, two things and let go of the rest. Needless to say, this person is no longer a part of my life, but my dreams remain.  

Not one part of me or my hopes will be left behind.

Have a lovely day

April

One baby duck