Day 16 of my Fast - It's All in the Mind!

Day 16

We are now on day 16 and deep into a detox cycle – which means a full day or two of feeling all over the place, toxic and generally tired or yukky. But, in reality, I have plenty of those days when not detoxing – so, go figure!

So far, we are feeling and doing fairly well. This fast is moving along pretty quickly – it always helps to be very busy of course. However, even if we were just sitting around staring off into space – it’s not so very difficult to fast when your mind is made up.

Which leads me to the centre of things here – our minds are such a useful tool when it comes to doing, well, nearly everything. In the past few years I can look back and see a clear pattern of the times when my mind was not fully engaged in what I needed to accomplish – and therefore it (my plans, hopes, wishes) never turned out the way I wanted it to.

Fasting has changed all of that for me. My mind is on-board with all things physical and spiritual – making it entirely possible to move forward in a fully integrated manner. There is no sense in part of us moving forward - we require ALL of us to be on the same page here. 

So, how would we know when our mind is not connecting in to our dreams or where this plays a part of a larger energy block? – well, for me it was when I spent most of my time feeling frustrated and not seeing the movement I would have liked to have.

In many ways our minds are the most extensive part of us because a mind is made up of and inter-connected to every dimension and layer of our beings. The physical component alone involves every cell in our bodies. 

One of the most important changes I have noticed so far with this particular cleanse is how my thinking is influenced by the presence of toxins. Once another layer lifts off, my entire world shifts into higher gear and it seems possible to get moving again.

Speaking of moving – I am off to get in some exercise – this is especially important in our lives when walking the spiritual path, not the least of which is to remove toxins, but also for proper alignment and energy flow in our body.

No matter what is happening with you – or how far you feel you have to go – each step takes you closer to that goal. You can’t get there if you don’t get going….and there’s no time like right now. 

April

This Darkness is Not Absolute - Let There Be Light

It’s been a great week so far…the weather has been dry again (I am actually watering my garden) with most of the rain clouds passing us by. Of course, when it’s like this outside my mind automatically runs to – will it last?

And then, when I think about it, I realize I have a pattern of thinking like this in so many other areas of my life as well. It’s a ‘it’s nice/good/better right now, but this will change’ sort of negative expectation.

This theme runs throughout every area of my life (all energetic patterns are like that) and no doubt affects me in a detrimental way. Not only does it take some of the joy out of the present moment, this is fear based thinking at work.

I can see the thread of darkness as it weaves it’s way into my thoughts….Will the work last, will these good feelings stay, will things keep getting better? All the while I am bracing myself for something to change for the worst.

We are so conditioned to expect bad news, negative feelings, heavy energy and have poor experiences. Every single outlet or information source spews out the bad and the ugly, with little good.

This darkness seems absolute.

That’s why when we see a good news story (practically anywhere) we jump on it, people wade in, just to taste the sweeter waters and to soak up some rays. Any glimmer of light is like a magnet for the souls who are seekers.

If experience has taught me anything along these roads I have been walking…it’s this; it does get better, it will change, there is so much good in the world, there is a light that never goes out……

We have to change our minds - recondition our guts to think from a higher, lighter and clearer level (through diet, exercise, fasting, fresh real food). Only then will our thoughts shift from low expectations (or none) to higher more positive expectations with everything.

It’s somewhere deep inside of us, like a pilot light and perhaps the world is finally ready for some brighter sparks to ignite that fire. All we have to do is believe. 

April

 

Breaking Through the Shadow Mind....

I am fasting again today….it’s been an intermittent fasting week, one day eating and one day fasting. While I time my workouts (and milking goats, cooking, cleaning, writing, gardening!LOL) for my fasted days…it just feels much better that way. 

This week has seen more in the way of change for me – mostly in my mind (it's all in my mind, isn't it!). It’s as if I am breaking through back into the place I was in as a teenager. Which is a time of some great memories for me because I was certain I could do anything! LOL

Such is the young mind….of course over the years this 'frame of mind', thinking and certainty was pulled down, torn apart and held back by my experiences (read: mostly social relationships, jobs, negativity) but also through one pivotal event.

At age 20 or so I had glandular fever. I knew then it was life sapping and I related it back to vaccinations I was forced to endure a few months previously (my system was down etc.) in order to start a new job….

However, I guess I didn’t realize how much this and other viruses in our systems erode away at our minds as well. To be honest with you – in a matter of months after I had the initial infection, I was a shadow of myself.

And I have struggled to get that part of myself back ever since. Physically I have healed my body, regained my energy and come back from a lot over the years. They say the mind is the last thing to go - so is it the first thing to come back in a higher consciousness sort of way?

Either way, it was totally a mind thing that was hurt by this virus – because I knew without a doubt I could accomplish anything, I could be anything, I was resourceful, creative and I was a free spirit. I know that kind of sounds like me now as well….

But, back then, this energy was firmly fixed to my identity – I had no worries about my life or my future. I was here on this planet and I was living and that was all that mattered. 

Only this past week, have I felt that part of me rising up once again, into it's full stature, surrounding  me like a new energy. And I hope with all of my heart, that she takes the lead from now on.

April 

Wild Garlic.....lovely energy

It's Called Living....

Today is the last of our feast days for February and the Imbolc celebrations...here and gone so fast. Time seems to be moving so swiftly right now it's hard to catch up with it. However, it's all good because things are also shifting and moving along with it.

This week and this cleanse seems to have brought up a load of old negative patterns for me - and I am glad. Because this is precisely the stuff I have been trying to get at for so very long. I think I have been picking away at it - but this time around, a chunk seems to have broken loose and is now moving.

I am right where I need to be. 

That is always a guarantee when you are following your path, listening to your heart and working hard at being present to the things that matter. Of course the more you do this, the more you will find out that very little matters...

In fact, there are only about 1 or 2 things left on the long list of items that were once so very important...for me the first one is my little family and then our health. After that? Well, perhaps it's our garden, animals and how each of those other things on our list can support our family and health.

I have found over the years that as my health improves so does every other aspect of my life. My mind is clearer, my heart is louder, my body is stronger, my relationships with my children are healthy. Good health spills over into every single area of my existence.

It can't help but do that because when I focus on the one area - my body, then I am also working on my mind. Yet, when I carefully feed my mind with positive and healthy thoughts (from wonderful food and water) my spirit comes alive with the reconnection from a living earth.

There is a continuum of life and it all starts with making a simple decision - I want to be here, to be healthy and to know and trust my body. It's called living.

April

Another Master Cleanse Done!

It's over and we have moved on to the next phase which is already shaping up to be certainly focused on two things so far - mind and physical exercise and perhaps the connection between them. Even today, day 11, which is really a juice day as we shift back into eating, I am sensing change.

Today I am on smoothies and juice for the day until later when I will have some soft cooked veggie soup and some homemade bread. Day 11 usually goes quite well, albeit a little shock to the system of flavours, textures and tastes after the herbal teas and lemon drink for 10 days.

I love this time because now is when we see the effort of cleansing come together into what was accomplished and how far we have moved forward with our inner quest. Already I am seeing in my workouts how I feel stronger, more determined and focused.

This time around I not only maintained my daily workout during the fast, but increased them in length and intensity. So, now with some more calories in my system, I am surging with energy and can feel the power in my muscles.

It's a great place to be actually! I can't help but think this is what wellness or total health must feel like...

So far today, I am still cooking, I just made our meal of mung bean root vegetable stew and some honey spelt bread to go with it. Later I want to make some crackers for everyone as well as get started on a few more of our goodies for the weekend.

This weekend is Mabon of Autumn Equinox which for us usually means a celebration of trees. This is the perfect time of year to plant a lot of different trees as well as put seeds into the ground. In Ireland the winter garden is always a nice option too. 

Already today I have been working away in my herb garden taking advantage of the drier weather to get some herbs in for drying. The whole kitchen looks and smells like herbs (they are hanging to dry), warm bread and health.

Well, off to get some more done here today, have a good one,

April

Oak tree in pot in my herb garden

It's Day Eight of 10 day Master Cleanse

Today I feel pretty good so far, for a chilly, windy and rainy day! It's now day 8 and the topic of conversation has been around doing more of these in the coming months, perhaps a couple of longer Master Cleanses before Christmas and the fact that successfully completing a cleanse is all mind over matter.

So that takes me to right where I am now, gaining more ground within my mind with a lot of clarity about some very old issues bursting through the seams here. As I have mentioned a few times during the past week, the focus has been very much on the unseen realms and supernatural.

However, these worlds are not separate from us, they simply exist in dimensions we are not fully aware of all the time. My attention has been drawn to the connection between mind, unseen worlds and our immune system or inner defences. 

As a Medical Intuitive these are issues I wonder about and links I am looking for inside of myself. The question to ask here is exactly what kind of influence might some supernatural force such as fallen angels for instance, exert on a human being?

How much harm can they do, how would they gain entry (energy attachment within the nervous tissue) and of course, how far is a detox, Master Cleanse going to go in removing, breaking down and eliminating this entity? Energy is a simple thing - actually none of these concepts are complicated.

It appears to all come down to our immune system - so naturally there has to be a huge mind connection between these two functions. Any components of our minds that exist in the brain for instance also must bridge into the glial cells and separate immune system there. 

Lots of things on my mind today! One thing that I am certain about right now - my immune system is gaining ground, it is something I have wondered about during these cleanses - what effect might they have on immune function and now I think I know.

My body (and mind) simply feels stronger, like I am more certain of my presence here on the earth, sort of like a groundedness with all parts of me invited. Not a bad side benefit from these detoxes at all!

As for detox symptoms - my tongue is still coated, I have good energy levels, sleeping deeply, still dreaming (last night of electronic gadgets, wires and listening devices LOL), I have lost about 8 pounds so far and am feeling really focused. 

For me at this point, doing these Master Cleanses is not about weight loss as I am at a healthy weight. However if you need to drop some weight, this is a safe, healthy way to do it, as I have long known weight loss without detoxing is a disaster.

The extra weight we carry is the resting place for much of the toxic debris and must be whittled down as your detox progresses. This is the magic of the inner workings of our bodies - and I am delighted to be in this wonderful place, moving steadily inwards towards home. 

We are still working away on our menu for late next week (Blue Moon Festival) and I am now finally looking forward to getting this cleanse behind me - mostly so that I can enjoy its' benefits! 

Have a healthy day,

April

Green leaves, but no pumpkins yet! 

A Fasting Day- Mind & Imagination

Today is a fasting day, this is the day that I was looking forward to after all the cooking and eating over the weekend. It feels nice to give my digestion a break and just to reflect back on the last few days of living and being on this path.

Day on/day off fasting has come to mean the time and space that I give myself to digest, reflect and process through all the things that are taking place on so many different levels each and every moment. Walking this path requires commitment and this is one way to carry out my responsibility to myself to make every effort to understand all that is happening both inside and out.

And none being more important then in my mind.

When used properly, our mind is a marvelous tool - of course the molecules, cells and components of the mind are made up from various parts of our bodies and like the rest of us need to first be re-claimed, cleaned up and then brought back into proper functioning.

As I have mentioned here many times and talk about extensively in my book The Pagan Diet, our minds are 90% of the spiritual path, the largest component of fulfilling our dreams and goals and absolutely necessary for all health and healing.

Our minds are elemental parts of ourselves that enable us to become aware of the world (inner and outer) and to understand our experiences. We simply cannot move forward in an aligned, purposeful way without fully integrating an active imagination.

Yet, you would be surprised (or perhaps not) how many people I meet on a daily basis who are actively trying to leave behind their minds, shut them down, detach from them and otherwise disengage the gears of cognitive function.

If you want to move more deeply into the mechanics of how, why (which is all about purpose and destiny) you feel compelled to follow the path you are on and strive to be the person buried underneath all of those toxins, you must bring your mind back from being tucked out of the way.

You cannot become conscious without awareness of the process.

Have a great day,

April

Opening Doors....

3rd Day...

It is day 3 of our third Master Cleanse in 3 months and I am feeling pretty good. The one thing that I would say about this time around is that I have even more energy (if that is possible) and I feel as if my mind is as clear as a bell.

Sharp; that is how I feel, my thinking, my thoughts and the pictures that go along with both of those are clear and free flowing. My energy field seems to be lighter already - yet it seems as if I am anticipating something and as yet it has not revealed itself for me.

A few days ago I wrote about blocks in my energy field that were playing out in my life - this is still my focus, however, each time I bring my mind around to something that has felt to be resistant to change, I walk, do some Yoga and otherwise ponder it - and I am getting an immediate solution.

In some ways I have had that all along - but it was a much more difficult process and took far more time! This week, it appears to be instantaneous and these blocks really feel to be unravelling as each day moves on.

Yesterday I did accomplish a lot again- mostly writing. There is always so much that I want to say, and being a writer (and foodie) at heart, if I don't write it down - it becomes another block or area of stagnant energy. So there you have it - do what you are meant to be doing, no matter what anyone else thinks, or says and don't let your own worry, doubts and fears stop you.

Break down those walls, find what it is that you love to do and start doing it - even if it is for a few minutes a day. And if you are still uncertain about the few things that you would love to do, start doing something (anything) and see how it evolves and shapes into the things you are passionate about. 

Then work your way up to more of it, and see where it takes you. If there is no open door, build one, or break down the wall and go free.

These chains that bind and the blocks that hold us back will only remain in place for as long as we are willing to carry them around. When you take significant and tangible steps (actually do something real about them) then your entire being will align and respond with that new movement.

Of course, becoming an unblocked human on this planet also means responsibility - you must then own who you are, be that person and protect your newfound self and sense of identity. Who you are is precious, like finding a diamond in the sea - hold on to it, hold it up to the light and then let that beacon guide you forward.

If you have not yet started you own cleanse (in any fashion) it is about time you got started on your path. 

Have a warm day,

April

My garden fairy blowing bubbles

July Master Cleanse...Count Down!

Today is a food day, yesterday was a fast day and tomorrow I am starting my next Master Cleanse. Some of you may remember how I promised myself that I would complete at least 4 MC's this summer - and have already done two, one in May and one in June.

I am really looking forward to this next cleanse as I feel and can clearly see the progress that I am making in my life. It shows in the things that are happening on the outside of me such as changes in habits, patterns and people around me.

But this also is very evident in my thinking - as I explain in my book The Pagan Diet, our minds are more than 90% of the battle, so once you get your mind on side (detox enough to create a change in the gut) then this is not only easy but the best thing on earth.

This week I have been speaking to several people at various stages of fasting, Master Cleanses and transforming their lifestyle's - the one common thing that each of them mention has been how easy fasting is. Living this way (food, fast & feast) is straight forward and simple - no gimmicks, nothing weird about it - just clean food and clean water.

Right now I am doing the usual things before a cleanse, I am already thinking ahead to the theme and focus of this cleanse as I do each time I start one. This time around I would like to focus on places in my life where I feel blocked and held back. And I know that so many people out there are experiencing the same things in work, relationships, spirituality, creative pursuits, dreams and desires. 

Of course you may remember that by about day 4 or day 5 some other co-patterns will emerge and this could go in a completely different direction! Yet, by the end of the cleanse the emotions and physical symptoms that need to move will have surfaced to be dealt with. 

That is one of the most important aspects of having an open mind- it's the same when people come to see me for a reading. You may want to focus on a specific area which is fine, however, if your body has other ideas and needs you to concentrate on something else, this is important too. I have learned over the years that it will all lead you back to the same place or where ever it is that you need to be.

There are no detours on this trip, it is all part of the journey. 

Have  sunny day where ever you are,

April

Bright colors of summer - in the garden