This Darkness is Not Absolute - Let There Be Light

It’s been a great week so far…the weather has been dry again (I am actually watering my garden) with most of the rain clouds passing us by. Of course, when it’s like this outside my mind automatically runs to – will it last?

And then, when I think about it, I realize I have a pattern of thinking like this in so many other areas of my life as well. It’s a ‘it’s nice/good/better right now, but this will change’ sort of negative expectation.

This theme runs throughout every area of my life (all energetic patterns are like that) and no doubt affects me in a detrimental way. Not only does it take some of the joy out of the present moment, this is fear based thinking at work.

I can see the thread of darkness as it weaves it’s way into my thoughts….Will the work last, will these good feelings stay, will things keep getting better? All the while I am bracing myself for something to change for the worst.

We are so conditioned to expect bad news, negative feelings, heavy energy and have poor experiences. Every single outlet or information source spews out the bad and the ugly, with little good.

This darkness seems absolute.

That’s why when we see a good news story (practically anywhere) we jump on it, people wade in, just to taste the sweeter waters and to soak up some rays. Any glimmer of light is like a magnet for the souls who are seekers.

If experience has taught me anything along these roads I have been walking…it’s this; it does get better, it will change, there is so much good in the world, there is a light that never goes out……

We have to change our minds - recondition our guts to think from a higher, lighter and clearer level (through diet, exercise, fasting, fresh real food). Only then will our thoughts shift from low expectations (or none) to higher more positive expectations with everything.

It’s somewhere deep inside of us, like a pilot light and perhaps the world is finally ready for some brighter sparks to ignite that fire. All we have to do is believe. 

April

 

Clearing Out Darkness From Within

Today has been a busy one – we had our Bee Keeping class in Loughbeg Farm and it was fun – the kind of day when you feel pleasantly tired at the end of it and ready for rest.

A lot has been going through my mind these days however as I move along each day of this parasite cleanse….when a person is not busy digesting food, the mind is free to ‘digest’ all the emotions, patterns and issues that rise to the surface.

I am feeling things moving and changing however – but one other thing that I am quite pleased about is how I am understanding and getting underneath how these parasites work and affect our well-being.

They are quite devastating overall to our bodies, mind and spirits – perhaps we don’t really know how deeply they affect us and wear us down. But, the operative word here appears to be ‘wearing’ us down.

When ever there is a parasite in our body – perhaps in the wrong place, where it has too much opportunity for being well fed, or has embedded into the gut wall very deeply – we are undernourished.

What is worse, we are underfed in our minds as well as our spirits because these parasites stop at nothing short of taking everything (at least the best of everything) for themselves.

Our bodies contain all vital resources necessary for a long and healthy life on this planet – when we are well fed with wholesome food and water. If we were free of these life force stealing creatures – that life would be far richer and more rewarding.

Any time spent clearing out such darkness from our bodies is time well spent.

April

Towards the Light

There is always a light at the end of the tunnel - of course it leads to the outside. Assuming we have started out on the inside - this is the natural direction we should all be going in. Yet, somehow, some times all we find is more darkness.

Those days when we emerge from our tunnel only to find more of the same darkness (in the form of a mood, a fear or situation), perhaps it's because it is still night. But there are also times when we simply can't see the light that is there - kind of like the dawn that is coming....but not quite bright enough yet.

How can this be? One thing I have discovered about walking this spiritual journey is that often the light needs to be turned on by us, for us and in us. Yes, the dawn is coming, the day is turning towards the sun and the night is fading behind us.

Yet, there are days of bright sunshine when some of us still sit in darkness. It is then up to us to find light where ever we look - to seek out light, sun, brightness and higher vibrations. The light we are seeking is out there, in here and all around.....and it is also seeking us.

We just have to open our eyes, refocus and keep moving forward in faith.

April

Taking a Break From IT All....

It's been a great Christmas so far, in many ways, yet I do find myself slipping back into old habits. One of my biggest ones is not being able to relax fully or even let myself enjoy a few days of down time. I have such a need to keep doing, keep going.

Instead of just being or allowing things to be as they are.

I guess it comes from many years of always being kept on my toes around certain people. You know the ones - they are relatives of all of us. The creatures who show up at your house or worse, you are expected to go to theirs - and then you have to be on your guard every minute because of the awful energy.

Usually the energy is dark, heavy and worrisome. Or to put a description on it; I have been to a few gatherings where the chat would alternate between poking fun (in a nasty way) at a few others who weren't there or signaling out a few who were and attacking them.

For some reason I would not be in the direct line of fire, but I could feel the sharpness of the barbs as they hurtled past me. Either way, it was no way to spend any portion of the holidays and it left me feeling frazzled at the end of it all.

Gossip, negative talk about others and critical talk are very heavy to be around - even if you are not always within earshot of what is being said, it doesn't take much intuition to figure it out. I remember walking into a health food store in a town where I lived (there was only one) and they carried on gossiping about the previous customer who had just left - I was appalled (and kept thinking of that darkness around the food) and never went back.

This is dangerous energy to be slinging around and for some reason these family holiday gatherings seem to bring out the worst in everyone who is so inclined. If you are party to any of this - it will pull you down and hold you there.

Best thing to do is to disengage, clean up your act and walk (run!) away from those who make this type of idle chat an occupation. They are a complete waste of time and energy - and will stop you from enjoying your holiday break.

April

Reflection of Your Shadow Self

Nothing better than a long weekend to get your feet on the ground once again and to bring life back into perspective. I really enjoy these long dark nights in with the family - on the one hand, it is cosy and comforting. While, I do miss the long days and the light....

Somewhere between worlds is where we find ourselves at the moment - at this time of year our gut lining is it's thinnest, making detoxing easier. But also meaning that toxins can move back and forth when the digestive system is not in a healthy state.

Of course the most exciting thing about right now is the change. If you cannot sense all of these energy shifts taking place on the earth at the moment - try to take some time to slow down and get into this new groove. Things are really starting to move as far as higher consciousness is concerned.

And where does that leave all of us? Well, if you have been actively taking part in creating your life, working on eating better, exercising and focusing on what you want here - you are on the right path. Regardless of what anyone out there says to the contrary - awakening is a physical process and you can't do that without your body's involvement. 

Now is not the time to succumb to sugar, sweets and the pure rubbish on offer - each of these are strategically placed to pull you back down to the lower dimensions. Walking the spiritual path is all about overcoming these obstacles and addictions. You cannot bring them with you. 

This weekend and during these coming dark days before the light returns is also a great time to reflect on all you are hoping for, dreaming about and attempting to bring about in this world. Now is a good time to refine your goals while you continue to work at making them happen.

Deeply into the shadow time of the year as we are now, reflects our own shadow self - and out of this darkness will come great ideas, plans and profound energy into the light. This is the time to actively pursue your dreams - wherever they may be.

April

Full moon on Lughnasadh