Just Below the Horizon of Thought

Today is one of those days that gives me lots to think about - it's as if something very deep needs to come up to the surface. But it's not quite ready yet - I can sense it stewing away just below the horizon of thought...

I have been busy cleaning out the garden from the weeds that seem to magically appear during the winter months. It is quite a task! Trying to remember what was plant and sort out where the garden stops and the weeds begin.

This always seems to bring things up for me somehow. Deeper levels of energy that have been long buried and perhaps mostly hidden from view - start to come into focus when ever I allow my thoughts to wander freely.

And I really enjoy these days...especially when there is actual heat in the sun and you can see the length of each day grow as the weeks go by. It's nice to be alive in the spring - when all of earth re-gains her purpose and meaning. 

If I have only learned one thing since Solstice season it is this - do not be afraid of what comes your way. Chances are you have created it - besides it's always an opportunity to clear away old patterns, beliefs, worries and to face those fears full on.

Some times I wonder if I tried hard enough, I might be able to see the future...my future. But - alas I cannot. Like most good things, I should be able to tell my future by what I create today. If I am building a framework for something, then in reality it should fall into place piece by piece as time moves forward.

When this doesn't happen (fast enough or in the right way) there is obviously a block of some kind. Now this is when our work begins in earnest. Our task more often then not is to overcome and remove these obstacles - rework our dreams and keep moving forward.

It's that simple...

April

I love sun - at any time of the day!

Will Power, Self Control - Mastery

Today is my second day of this mini - cleanse and I am already planning my weekend menu! LOL But, I will add right here that this is not difficult to do at all - at one time, when my mind or my will power or my self control was NOT my own - doing something like this would have been nearly impossible.

If you want to get started with fasting, detoxes and mini or Master Cleanses but are feeling such a huge level of resistance - start out slowly. I can tell you from my own experience that these issues of not feeling as if you are in control of your own mind are very real. And for the most part you are not in control of your own mind - at least not yet.

It probably took me about 4 months to get in the door of mind-control and then to take over the reigns, so to speak, once I was inside. This takes work, dedication, commitment, perseverance and whatever you can throw at it - but it is the most worthwhile thing that I have ever done.

In my book The Pagan Diet, I talk you through how to start incorporating fasting into your life slowly, taking each day as it comes and all the little things that you need to know, what you will have to work through and many of the issues, such as hunger, that you will face as you walk yourself forward into a better place.

I have not one shred of doubt in my body's ability to change, heal, fix, alter, remove or accomplish anything that I set out to do - and now that my mind is fully onside and working with me, I know that this is a full on approach to living. Perhaps one of the best things is that I know there is still so much more of me to awaken, return, find and discover or re-cover - this is like an adventure!

Through proper eating (if you are uncertain of what you need to be eating order my book The Way to Heal/Detox) you take back your body, by connecting with the land, keeping a garden, including ceremony and ritual in your life you take back your spirit and through water fasting, cleansing, detox, spending time in deep contemplation (The Pagan Diet) - you take back your mind. 

This is a life that is interesting, full, alive and entirely built upon a solid foundation of following your dreams, opening up your heart and learning how to connect to universal Oneness. For those of you who are wondering - no, this does not happen spontaneously, an awakening is a cellular activity involving an energetic shift that requires of you to overcome the obstacles placed in your way.

If you want to be, you can be in charge of these shifts while removing the obstacles

April

My daughter's painting 

In the final days...Day 9

Today is day 9 of our 10 day Master Cleanse and it has been eventful and once again life changing in so many ways. First of all it does feel as if my goal of removing the obstacles in my life that held me back from following my dreams are being removed - at least that is how it feels.

Secondly, if my dreams are anything to go by, most of these blocks have been on a soul or spiritual level which has required deeper and more intensive healing, thus the absolute requirement of a Master Clenase. Perhaps that is the reason why it would only take a detox such as a MC to pull out these toxins and then repair a hurt spirit.

When you are doing a Master Cleanse, your body is solely focused on healing, clearing, pulling out toxins and gently repairing damage done by those toxins. There is really nothing else happening during this time - the replenishment comes immediately after the detox, as well as the balancing of body systems.

This is the single biggest reason to feed yourself very well after the MC is finished, because there is building up of tissues taking place. Which brings me to another point - right now winding down during these last few hours of our cleanse, we are already planning our post cleanse menu and discussing all the yummy foods we will make and eat in the coming days.

Of course there is a feast coming up soon as well - Lughnasadh - so there will be plenty of food being prepared and eaten for the several days of our feast. After an intensive cleanse such as this one, the feast days give us something to focus on and plan for.

Last night I had more dreams, this time about people from the past who I would have considered to be draining of my energy. And the one thing that would have stood out from my relationship with them is that they were hanging around me and my family - looking for love. 

Not a healthy or balanced relationship from the beginning - however these were people I grew up around and they had seemed to always be there in the background of my life at that time. I moved away from ties of this kind many years ago and have been working on breaking these patterns ever since. 

Right now I am able to see the pattern this cleanse has been taking - 

1. open the heart

2. re-connect with my love/passion

3. remove toxins/obstacles blocking the way

4. healing

Overall this is not a bad way to spend 10 days of my life! I cannot stress this enough, doing these cleanses have changed my thinking, my energy field has re-patterned, my body systems are balanced and I am feeling like 'myself'.

There is still 48 hours to go on this MC, so lets see what else comes up to the surface and how it plays out in our lives. 

Be kind and gentle with yourself today,

April