Standing In Our Own Power - Day 19 of My Detox

Today feels a little more settled as far as energy goes, however there is still much change in the air - and it is all quite good. Change seems to be what we are all seeking, yet many times we feel it is too much to undertake or we don't know how to create it.

I remember feeling like that - waking up in the morning, deciding to make some positive changes, starting out on the right foot, sometimes even lasting for a day, a week or so. But then falling back into the old patterns. 

It was as if something was working against me. Some energy or force was counteracting my own efforts to move forward - and it was overpowering all of my good intentions. At the time, I used to blame myself - for every failure and fault.

But, at the same time, I had several people around me who would deliberately sabotage my every effort to be healthier or forge ahead with my own dreams. I have done a lot of work around this over the years because at the time it absolutely baffled me.

Now, I can see a few reasons why someone would want to hold another person back - however it doesn't make it any easier to comprehend. I am mentioning this because it takes place in everyone's lives to some extent.

And it is not a nice feeling. At the end of the day as long as people such as these remain in your life, you will find yourself going around in circles. And not circles of your own making - but someone else's agenda and thoughts about your life.

During this detox I have been giving a lot of thought to each of these things - perhaps because they are coming up and hopefully resolving to a greater degree. But also because there is such an otherworldly component involved in this type of interference energy.

Quite often ghosts, disembodied spirits, orbs and those whose lives have expired but manage to remain here, have the strongest interest in maintaining the status quo. And that means keeping you firmly fixed in place. 

Not anymore - 'these boots were made for walking' - and life is all about standing in your own power. 

April 

48 Hours To Finish Line! Day 11

As of right now there are less then 48 hours left until juice day of my Master Cleanse and I am feeling pretty good. What I had hoped to discover this time around is if doing these extra days, past the 10 day mark has any added benefit.

The story so far this cleanse has been less clear to me then some of my other detoxes - in that there has yet to be any real theme emerge. Or so I thought. I now think it has been far more elusive, because I am clearing out old ghosts from the past.

And I mean that literally. In the energetic world, when someone passes on (or should have passed on but manages to remain here feeding off of others) this causes an energy disparity. Of course, those of us who work hard at living in balance within our own resources will find this to be a strain.

Unfortunately we all know people like this. They walk the streets, are family members, co-workers and so forth. Energy vampires are always on the look out for an opportunity to siphon off a free meal from any unprotected human.

All of this sounds like heavy, deep work - but it actually hasn't been. These past 11 days have been easy enough to navigate and I feel fairly good. But, I am really aware of the deep work taking place underneath the surface, especially around my back and kidneys. These are common places of attachment and this cleanse has been working away at breaking down these cords.

Today I have some detox symptoms - my tongue is still coated, my hair is still limp, my skin is a little bumpy, I can see shapes, lights, flashes and strands of energy waves moving within my energy field - as if a bit of re-patterning is going on.

Otherwise, my energy levels are good, I have been keeping up with my workouts, getting lots of work done on my new recipe book (Eat Like A Pagan), and the children are moving at a great pace with their school work. 

Most importantly to me, my dreams are back - full on! I have been dreaming non stop each night again of whales, open ocean, boats and last night of a beautiful house with a big central fireplace and marble floors. There was a cat and snow on the ground outside....

Well, off to start my day - it will be a good one!

April 

A little dragon fly on one of our sunny days

Halfway On Day 5

Well, it is day 5 - we are pretty well half way to the finish line and feeling well. The one thing that I noticed yesterday was that a weakness in my legs that I would have felt for many years, which is usually there when I am not fasting, had flared up. I kept walking through it as it is more of a 'sense' and a heaviness - toxins. 

So, now this morning I am still feeling lots of energy, looking forward to my exercise and loving the clear feeling in my body and head. Other than my skin being a little bumpy and the heavy legs, I don't have any other detox symptoms yet. Just the dreams! 

The dreams continued last night with me sitting and talking to the 'ghost' from my dream the night before, who had now taken form and shape into a person that I knew. Plus, in the dream I could not open my eyes, I was trying to, but they were itching, burning as if I had been peeling very strong onions or something. Once I stepped outside I was fine.

Then another dream of me ordering food at a restaurant something like a fast food place, while I was wondering why I was even there. And a very significant dream of a person in a wheelchair who believed that he was paralyzed - when I had him close energy leaks he could see that his legs were filled with 'fear toxins' and he was then able to stand up.

How clear is all of that!!! Lots of things moving and shifting for me here - so I am well under way to getting at the root of this block. I am really excited now to see what each day brings as everything appears to be centering around dissolving this resistance in my body.

By the way, last night I actually had so much energy that at 10:30 I was out walking and enjoying the night air. It was peaceful and calm. Today I am planning to do some more creative things to keep this energy moving and to get outside as much as possible. 

Each time I do these Master Cleanses they always prove to be deep, significant and the gentlest way forward on my journey. All I can say right now is WOW, this is really working and something that I was after for many years has come to the surface.

Talk to you tomorrow,

April

And Breakthrough On Day 4!

I went to bed last night a bit unsettled mostly because I was aware that things were moving and shifting but was trying to not get my hopes up too much about it. Wanting to break down these walls into this new space has been with me for awhile and I have been working away at it for seemingly a very long time. 

So what on earth am I talking about? This Master Cleanse, now on Day 4, has been focused on removing blocks, resistance and any areas of stagnant energy in my life that are holding me back in some way. I know that this is a very tall order for only a 10 day cleanse, however, I was hopeful that I would be able to make progress in a positive direction.

And now it seems that I have. During each cleanse I watch my dreams closely - I do this anyway and have many years of dream journals - last night I was given exactly the dreams I have been waiting for. Very clear and to the point showing me precisely what was happening and where I am with this goal of mine.

In one of my dreams I was going through a house looking for ghosts, I knew they were there because I could sense them but they were hiding. I found a very large energy entity up near the ceiling in one room and was able to contain it and then name it. Then I proceeded to give the people instructions on how to get rid of it - because it had moved into the house when it was empty, but it did not belong.

In another dream I had to sit an exam later that day and was preparing myself by studying, again there was no fear, no anxiety at all and I was very clear in what was expected of me. The exam was in physics (a subject I loved in Uni) and I was discussing the exam with other students. 

When dreams are clear such as this, it reassures us that we are on the right track and that old energetic patterns are shifting or clearing out to make room for new and better things. It feels great to get this far in such as short time and I am excited now to see what the rest of this cleanse brings for me.

Today I am feeling well, good energy levels, my mind is still clear and outside it has finally stopped raining - at least for now. Perhaps we will get the sunshine that we all need to top up our Vitamin D stores. Today was also another Salt Water Flush day so I am clearing out toxins in every way possible. 

Well, off to start my day!

Have a good one,

April

Flowers in bloom in the garden - lovely summer colours!