Breaking Through the Shadow Mind....

I am fasting again today….it’s been an intermittent fasting week, one day eating and one day fasting. While I time my workouts (and milking goats, cooking, cleaning, writing, gardening!LOL) for my fasted days…it just feels much better that way. 

This week has seen more in the way of change for me – mostly in my mind (it's all in my mind, isn't it!). It’s as if I am breaking through back into the place I was in as a teenager. Which is a time of some great memories for me because I was certain I could do anything! LOL

Such is the young mind….of course over the years this 'frame of mind', thinking and certainty was pulled down, torn apart and held back by my experiences (read: mostly social relationships, jobs, negativity) but also through one pivotal event.

At age 20 or so I had glandular fever. I knew then it was life sapping and I related it back to vaccinations I was forced to endure a few months previously (my system was down etc.) in order to start a new job….

However, I guess I didn’t realize how much this and other viruses in our systems erode away at our minds as well. To be honest with you – in a matter of months after I had the initial infection, I was a shadow of myself.

And I have struggled to get that part of myself back ever since. Physically I have healed my body, regained my energy and come back from a lot over the years. They say the mind is the last thing to go - so is it the first thing to come back in a higher consciousness sort of way?

Either way, it was totally a mind thing that was hurt by this virus – because I knew without a doubt I could accomplish anything, I could be anything, I was resourceful, creative and I was a free spirit. I know that kind of sounds like me now as well….

But, back then, this energy was firmly fixed to my identity – I had no worries about my life or my future. I was here on this planet and I was living and that was all that mattered. 

Only this past week, have I felt that part of me rising up once again, into it's full stature, surrounding  me like a new energy. And I hope with all of my heart, that she takes the lead from now on.

April 

Wild Garlic.....lovely energy

Seeing What is Up Ahead - Function of the Higher Self.....

Not turned the corner yet with this cleanse, but getting there....last night was a very strange night with the wind and rain storm as a backdrop to some deep energy shifting and cracking wide open. Today has dawned clear and bright as it should after such a night!

Well we are now on day 12 of our cleanse and we will keep going this month until we feel we have done enough and reached our destination. Where ever that may be...when you are pursuing all matters spiritual, at times it's best to step back and let your heart lead.

Some part of us always knows the exact details of what is up ahead. I have mentioned it often - our higher self or some thing like that, scouts ahead into the unchartered waters, scopes out the lay of the land and reports back.

Part of the function of our dreams is to let us know what is coming our way, and I think that is exactly what mine were all about last night. It was a stormy night but the clouds passed and we have blue skies and clear sailing right now.

My dreams were all about a virus and being on a bus last night...I felt chilled and cold, and quite achy - which has all left now, but it was quite an interesting time! The virus in the form of a person was desperately trying to hold onto me and trying to stay in touch. In another dream I turned off my phone (which was dying and malfunctioning) and that was that! 

Who knows...

So, now on to other things, or more of the same. With any cleanse, you must take things as they come, try not to focus on what is missing in your life (food) but what you are gaining from the experience (your life back!).

Perhaps this will be another interesting day....

April

Sea salt - greatest healer!